BFN, again.

So it's negative, and the nurse didn't even call us, she just left a message on LabCalls. Ick. We're of course pretty upset, so next month it is. I guess that lucky number 7 and the Luck of the Irish together aren't even enough. ::sigh::

Beta...blah 13/14 dpi

Wating for the beta....and waiting...and waiting...

9/10 DPI...how can time be going by this slow

You know, with how long we've been doing this you would think that we would be more patient during the wait. I mean really, this is our seventh cycle and We've been trying for 10 months, so really, really, we should have learned by now to be patient, that these things take time, and that if we're not pregnant, it's not the end of the world! We just try next time, and everything will be all hunky-dory. Right? Yeah, right. And I'm the Queen of England.

I think that by now God has installed earplugs so He doesn't need to listen to my praying anymore. I've been so distracted today, partly because it's getting close to T-Day (ha ha test day) and because I haven't been able to talk to Megan alllll day. She's at work, bringing home the bacon like the awesome woman she is, but I really want to talk to her! I want to know if she has symptoms ::devilish grin::

So I need to get back to work...or Kiki and Waly might get mad and take away my computer so I focus more on my studies..........

AGONZING

So, I'm an idiot and I left my class syllabus in the car last night after L-Word, so I couldn't really go to class today. Megan will be home soon, and then I can get back on track, but DAMN IT I needed to study!!! So I've been cozied up with my pathology text all day and am taking a break from Multiple Sclerosis. I'm so worried because I feel really behind, and Neuro/Ophth/Psych are really challenging, but I don't really have room to complain. Not like it will change anything! Luckily, I have no affiliate visit or small group/clinical skills sessions this week, so I can focus on my studies and hopefully catch up. At least I'm only 8 lectures behind on listening/highlighting and I think 19 on highlighting only, so that's a surmountable challenge. And I'm doing it all for Fudge, right? Here he is...my inspiration...

This wait is AGONY. Pure agony. I'm hoping and praying for a miracle, that this our 7th try will work, but I'm so worried at the same time. Megan's cramps/sore breasts/sleepiness and insomnia/etc are so promising, but they could be just as easily explained by Clomid and Progesterone, so. Yeah. I don't know what to think. Please please please Lord please...

At least I only have a few more days left, which will fly by because of it being an exam week. And then we'll know! And then we'll truck on, either way :) Yes, that's the mantra...

Flower show and cramps

So today we went to the Philadelphia Flower Show...it was okay, but flowers aren't really so much my thing. I think Megan really liked it though! The theme of the show was Ireland, so there were some kids there doing Irish dancing which I am always really impressed by. There was even this itty bitty little girl dancing. So cute!

Anyway, today Megan mentioned some cramping, which of course got me all excited. I'm hoping so much that this will be it! And hey, she really feels positive about this time, so I have to feel positive too you know. I think we'll be able to hold out until at least 10 days to test, but hopefully we'll make it to 13 days, so Friday-ish. That way I can have SOME idea what the answer will be before taking my test on Friday.

So now it's off to Kiki and Waly's place to watch the L-Word, then home to feed the doggers and crash into bed. Fun times, as always :)

Serum Progesterone 9.8

So Megan had her progesterone level today (5/6 DPI, and about 5 DPO) and it was 9.8, way better than last month's 6.1! I think that means she had much better ovulation this time, so we're definitely excited. That's the first bit of good news. That and her boobs hurt, but who's keeping track...

Second bit of good news, today was Family Day at school and I went with my dad. We had a really nice time and he got to meet all my friends and their parents. It was nice to take some time off from school and just hang out and be a human being.

Now for the not-so-good news. I'm WAY behind in school and ALL I can think about is baby stuff and my personal academic ineptitude. Great way to go into a test week if you ask me. And I'm hyper-dis tractable so for example when Megan asked me to turn up the volume on the TV, I practically had a panic attack. I'm surely, surely going crazy. But Kiki said I can pass, so pass my test I will. This time, I'm doing it for Fudgie. Yeah, yeah I said it. I am putting my all into classes for 6 days so I can dedicate my performance to my dog. Damn I'm a sad person sometimes.... Oh, and did I mention that I also still have a cold, and I also am taking antihistamines, and I also feel REALLY fat and can't seem to stop eating...great.
I've managed to now study ONE lecture, so I'm taking my blog break. Now back to studying, one more lecture before I get to go to BED!! Toodles.

Plodding along

So today we're at 4/5 DPI and Megan is keeping mum. She says she is COMPLETELY ignoring any and all possible signs and symptoms this time, so I get to be kept totally in the dark. Yay. I'm just thinking about our timing, and how good it was, and that our donor has pregnancies reported. I'm hoping that all that will come together positively for us and this will be our month!

I can't blog for too long today...I have to STUDY. I'm incredibly behind, though not as badly as I was before. I'm a little worried that I won't be able to pull out the grades I need to (like in the 80's nothing fancy), so this next week is going to stink. A lot. At least Megan's beta shouldn't be during my test....

2 DPI

We inseminated on Saturday and Sunday, so that makes us 2/3 DPI today. Megan started a new job yesterday, which she really likes! She's working with young infants at a really relaxed daycare center and feels like she's making a difference. It's nice she has a distraction from the TWW as well :)

As for me, I'm just over 2 months away from being finished with my second year of medical school. Grades have been much better this year (thanks to my supportive partner and new study buddy, Kiki!) and I can't wait to start rotations in the summer. I dropped out of the MBA program...for many reasons, but too many to list here. Anyway, I'm glad I'm staying with my class now.

We're hoping that this, our 7th try, will be the charm. We felt like our timing was great and Megan seemed VERY fertile at the time, so we're hoping for the best :) Cheers.