Eleven. Days. Post. Ovulation.

I had another exam this morning, which I don't think went so well, but I'm reasonably sure I pulled off a Pass. Ah well. On to more obsessive things.

Today Megan is 11 dpo and we're waiting to test until at least tomorrow. I know I haven't posted much about how she's feeling, but here goes a summary:

-Dull pokey feelings in the lower pelvis, worst on CD5 and stopping on CD9.
-Bubbly or fluttery feelings in the lower pelvis, off and on all day, starting around CD6 and still going strong.
-Slightly sore bbs since ovulation, which turned to excrutiating after starting Crinone 7 dpo.
-10 minute dizzy spell 9 dpo after going to the bathroom (she had to pee reallllllly bad on a car trip), another very short one 10 dpo after standing up quickly.

Yeah, so there you have it. If it wasn't for the Crinone, we'd be sure she was pregnant with triplets or something! But no, we need to wait it out. Wait wait wait and wait some more. At least we've made it to 11 dpo without testing! We had a weak moment yesterday, but were way too lazy to go out and buy HPTs.

Oh, right, and Megan's interview! It went really well yesterday and they should let her know today if they're going to hire her! Yeah! Everyone wants my girl :) Helps that she's the BabyWhisperer, she can calm and quiet any baby.

Now it's time to go get my brownies out of the oven (YUM! Thanks Waly for the cool brownie mix!) and study, or something. Three more tests to go and then it's Boards time.

Okay, this is seriously disgusting

So Megan has been having these bubbly/fizzy feelings in her pelvic area and I decided to ask Dr. Google if that could be an early PG symptom we could obsess over (even though since we're not newbies anymore we're not obsessing....), and when I googled it there was this GRAPHIC fiction about beastiality of all things!!! So gross, I nearly lost my appetite. And for me, that's really, really saying something. I think I'm done with Google now.

11/12 DPI and Deflated

Yesterday Megan was feeling even more pregnant than ever before, so we got all geared up and tested this morning, which we think was 11 DPO. And got a very negative test :( So, even though it's really early, I'm feeling deflated. It's so hard that it feels like, for our age, we've been at this thing way too long and nothing seems to be working out the way it should. I mean, we changed donors, got the fertility meds, and still nothing. I don't know, I wouldn't call this a pessimistic feeling, just a reality check that this is a long, long road for some people.



On the message board I post on there have been about 5 or 6 new pregnancies this month. Some of them are people on their first try, all the way up through an "Old Codger" who has been trying (medicated) for ages and just got pregnant on a natural cycle. I don't know, I'm happy for them, especially those who this has been such a long road for, but I'm a little disappointed. I mean, at 24, Megan should have top-notch fertility. She should have been one of those who made it on the first try. And, well, we sort of did, but...::sigh:: I don't know.



I'm still hopeful that we'll get a different answer when she goes in for a Beta, but at least now I'm very in touch with the reality of this situation.


Back to studies. Serious exam tomorrow that's going to kick my lousy distracted ass. Ophthalmology, Psychiatry, Neurology, and a little Anesthesia to boot. *I* need anesthesia!!! But I'm doing this for Fudge...Right...here he is again for your enjoyment ;) How could you not try hard for him?

My God, I'm going nuts.

AGONZING

So, I'm an idiot and I left my class syllabus in the car last night after L-Word, so I couldn't really go to class today. Megan will be home soon, and then I can get back on track, but DAMN IT I needed to study!!! So I've been cozied up with my pathology text all day and am taking a break from Multiple Sclerosis. I'm so worried because I feel really behind, and Neuro/Ophth/Psych are really challenging, but I don't really have room to complain. Not like it will change anything! Luckily, I have no affiliate visit or small group/clinical skills sessions this week, so I can focus on my studies and hopefully catch up. At least I'm only 8 lectures behind on listening/highlighting and I think 19 on highlighting only, so that's a surmountable challenge. And I'm doing it all for Fudge, right? Here he is...my inspiration...

This wait is AGONY. Pure agony. I'm hoping and praying for a miracle, that this our 7th try will work, but I'm so worried at the same time. Megan's cramps/sore breasts/sleepiness and insomnia/etc are so promising, but they could be just as easily explained by Clomid and Progesterone, so. Yeah. I don't know what to think. Please please please Lord please...

At least I only have a few more days left, which will fly by because of it being an exam week. And then we'll know! And then we'll truck on, either way :) Yes, that's the mantra...

Flower show and cramps

So today we went to the Philadelphia Flower Show...it was okay, but flowers aren't really so much my thing. I think Megan really liked it though! The theme of the show was Ireland, so there were some kids there doing Irish dancing which I am always really impressed by. There was even this itty bitty little girl dancing. So cute!

Anyway, today Megan mentioned some cramping, which of course got me all excited. I'm hoping so much that this will be it! And hey, she really feels positive about this time, so I have to feel positive too you know. I think we'll be able to hold out until at least 10 days to test, but hopefully we'll make it to 13 days, so Friday-ish. That way I can have SOME idea what the answer will be before taking my test on Friday.

So now it's off to Kiki and Waly's place to watch the L-Word, then home to feed the doggers and crash into bed. Fun times, as always :)

6/7 DPICI today

We have some tentative good news to report! Today we've added some additional symptoms, namely very sore, bruised-feeling bbs and throbbing in the lower belly. M says the throbbing isn't painful, but that it feels bubbly "with a heartbeat" in her uterus. I'm sure hoping and praying this is a good sign! It's hard to not get excited when things seem so promising, but we shall see, we shall see. More updates to come over the weekend!

5/6 DPICI

Wow, the wait sure does seem to be flying this time. I mean sure, each day can be a little rough, but I can hardly believe that TOMORROW we'll be half done!

I have a little news to report. Yesterday, Megan told me there were some additional signs and symptoms (sore bbs, different food tastes, among others) and today her temperature is up again after a verrrry slight dip for two days. It's at the highest level yet! So we're allowing ourselves to be hopeful now, cautiously...it's so hard not to be. I think we just believe so much that this is meant to be that we stay hopeful each and every day until we have clear evidence that the wait is over.

That said, our weekend plans might include a trip to the beach to get in a little extra rest and relaxation. It was so much fun to see the dolphins last time, I can't wait to do that again! It doesn't look like we'll get to paint b/c the roofers might be coming, but we'll see what happens. More updates to come!

4/5 DPICI and holding!

Not too much to report yet. Megan's temperature is still up (though yesterday it dropped 0.2 degrees and held that level today), and there are a few other mild symptoms, including some "fizzies" last night!

Oh, right, last night. I got free tickets to see the Dixie Chicks and it was great fun. Much to our surprise, Anna Nalick (who sings 2 a.m.) was the opening act! Heck, we would have paid to see just her! I'm not a huge fan of the Dixie Chicks, but I really have an appreciation for them now for a couple of reasons. First, that fiddle player is damn good. I can't imagine being able to play like that! Second, the lead singer has a truly wonderful, powerful voice. Third, I am pleased to support a group of women who are successful based on their talent, not on their looks. I'm glad we went.

So, we got to bed pretty late after the concert, but I seem to be doing ok energy-wise today. I'm just at work and missing Megan like MAD. It sucks to be away from her during the TWW :P I know, I'll survive.

So, next update to come in a couple more days! We're trying to hold out until day 15 to test, but I doubt we'll make it that long. We'll keep you posted.

2/3 DPICI, 3 DPO, and counting

So everything went just swimmingly (haha, pun DEFINITELY intended). Megan even thought she felt ovulation pain 3 hours after the ICI on Friday, which meant our timing was right on! We went out gallivanting to the Reading outlet mall on Saturday and did another ICI that evening, which was followed by a dinner of the absolute worst pizza we've ever had. Philadelphia should be ashamed of Golden Crust Pizza!

Anyway, Sunday we went to the Jersey Garden outlet mall in Elizabeth, NJ, and that was a BLAST. We had so incredibly much fun! There were tons of kids stores, including Old Navy, Gap, and Gymboree outlets, which definitely kept our attention. On the way home, we hit the regular Gymboree and spent our remaining Gymbucks on some of the most cute clothes ever. I think we're done with clothes now, and we'll be focusing on diapers and other kinds of baby supplies when we need retail therapy.

No symptoms to report yet, though Megan and I are still in disbelief that she ALREADY ovulated, even though her temps and chart definitely say she did! There is no feeling that we made something happen this time, though that feeling last time could have been first-time jitters. It's only day 3, so there's no way we'll know for another week and a half anyway, so we'd best sit tight, cross our fingers, and pray! I will of course keep the updates coming...

10 flipping dpici

So we're still waiting. And waiting. And hoping, and wishing, and of course praying, but we're ready to know! We had a faint + on a HPT, but we don't really know what to do with that. It was SO faint we don't know if it's real. It's frustrating to think that things like chemical pregnancies do happen, but I'm just so hopeful. Other than that, not too much to say. The weather is very rainy and stormy and we were lucky enough to get the dogs out before the deluge. Otherwise, I would be a very, very drenched Karisa. More updates soon, and I hope it will be good news!

7/8 DPICI

So we're now a little over a week into this ordeal and we still feel like things are still looking good. Megan's temperatures took a dip over the weekend (along with some cramping) and now they are up again pretty high, so we're optimistic!

Today we went shopping and got more presents for Melaine, our good friend who will be having a boy this fall. It's nice to be able to shop for someone's baby since it would be a little presumptive to shop for our own at this point! Regardless, I bought a few things for M online today that she was eyeing, but they were on sale, so it's all good :)

This weekend was nice. We hadn't seen Evelyn in a year and it was great to have something else to think about for a few days. We even went to see the Liberty Bell and the outlet mall. Mmmmm shopping :)

Well, that's it for now. I'm enjoying my night off! No more accounting, woo hoo!

3/4 DPICI

Hello out there... we are now 3/4 days past our ICI's and M is having some interesting sensations in the area of her uterus. We're hoping this is a good sign! She's also been pretty nauseated today, so I don't know if that's due to EPF, which is immunosuppressing and could mean she caught a tummy bug, or somatization :P We'll keep cyberspace posted (which is really all this is, being that I haven't given anybody the URL yet)!

This weekend our friend Evelyn is coming up from Baltimore to visit. She's there working at the zoo (she's a vet student) and has a weekend off. It should be great, as we haven't seen her in more than a year.

Back to work...I have an accounting final exam due tomorrow and left work early today, so I need to work on my book chapter as well. Never a dull moment!

Two down, Fourteen to go!

So we just finished our 2nd insemination and Megan is propped upsidey down on the couch. We thought she was still fertile today, so we're hoping that now there's a nice double-dose of swimmers in there and that they'll be able to do their thing. We are officially on Day One of the Two Week Wait, so just two short (yeah, right) weeks until we know of we're pregnant!

Megan had a little "fizzy" feeling today in the morning, but we're trying not to think it means anything (it's too early anyway). We'll keep you posted, though!