Not too much to report so far. Megan had her last dose of Clomid yesterday, and today is CD9...so we should be back in business before too long. We got a huge box of gymboree stuff in the mail yesterday, and I do mean huge. We have enough to clothe a small army of toddlers! It's crazy. Anyway, Megan was really in the mood to talk and look at baby stuff yesterday and I really wasn't. This last BFN was really hard for me and I'm only just now getting to the point of not obsessing too much about the whole thing. Maybe today I'll be in more of a baby mood.
Good news is that I finally was able to study some yesterday! I feel like I'm getting back on track, which is really nice. On the bad side, the effing cat peed on my white coat, so I don't have it for grand rounds today. Stupid little shit cat. I swear he's going to goi flying out the window and onto the street one of these days...::growls::
Off to class. Hematology. Yay.
Showing posts with label Clomid. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Clomid. Show all posts
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
A hard day
I feel so bad for Megan. It's only the second day of clomid and she's already getting symptoms. Hopefully this translates to something GOOD for us!!
I also feel bad for her because I'm having a negative day. Out there in the blogosphere, it just seems like everyone gets pregnant on the first try or has to do IVF. I mean, I know that's not the case at all, but my goodness, I just feel so much like this might never work. I mean, I trust the RE and I know that she's doing her best. I trust Megan to take care of her body. And I know our new swimmers are going to be GREAT! But still, I'm so stressed out. I just feel like if it doesn't work this time it's going to kill me. I now I need to work on that attitude, but it's just so challenging.
And I'm torn about the monitoring too. I mean, we really, really, really can't afford to have the $800 of bloodwork done every month. And we can't afford the $1000 for ultrasounds either. We can do the US at the hospital for free, which will be great, because the results can still get to the RE realtime. But the bloodwork, I don't know. What if we don't catch the surge well enough with the OPK at home? Argh!!! I'm just so...yeah. Sad that we have to make this decision. Yeah. Why can't we just have all the money in the world? That would make it much more simple. One day, we'll have enough. One day, I'll be able to support Megan and our family and we won't have to worry about these things. One day SOON. Just not now. I just can't give her enough right now.
I think I'm going to cry.
So, I guess I need to get away from the computer for a while. If I had a picture of a sad face I would put it on here...
I also feel bad for her because I'm having a negative day. Out there in the blogosphere, it just seems like everyone gets pregnant on the first try or has to do IVF. I mean, I know that's not the case at all, but my goodness, I just feel so much like this might never work. I mean, I trust the RE and I know that she's doing her best. I trust Megan to take care of her body. And I know our new swimmers are going to be GREAT! But still, I'm so stressed out. I just feel like if it doesn't work this time it's going to kill me. I now I need to work on that attitude, but it's just so challenging.
And I'm torn about the monitoring too. I mean, we really, really, really can't afford to have the $800 of bloodwork done every month. And we can't afford the $1000 for ultrasounds either. We can do the US at the hospital for free, which will be great, because the results can still get to the RE realtime. But the bloodwork, I don't know. What if we don't catch the surge well enough with the OPK at home? Argh!!! I'm just so...yeah. Sad that we have to make this decision. Yeah. Why can't we just have all the money in the world? That would make it much more simple. One day, we'll have enough. One day, I'll be able to support Megan and our family and we won't have to worry about these things. One day SOON. Just not now. I just can't give her enough right now.
I think I'm going to cry.
So, I guess I need to get away from the computer for a while. If I had a picture of a sad face I would put it on here...
Friday, March 23, 2007
Time for some changes
Megan's period finally came, after a little thrill that we might have been pregnant anyway. ::sigh:: So now we're CD 4 and Megan just started Clomid again. This higher dose is already affecting her...she's moody and her bbs hurt already. Fun week for me! Oh yeah.
So here's what we're doing differently this time, our luckiest fantastic 8th time:
New donor from Xytex, who should have fantastic motility!
Higher dose of Clomid (150 mg), so Megan will have better ovulation!
IUI, to put those swimmers riiiight where they ought to be!
So, like I said, twins for us at Christmas ;) Noel and Jesus. Mary and Joseph? Mary and...Mary?
Anyway, I'm looking forward to this try. When I talked to the nurse, she mentioned that Megan's follicles weren't that great the last couple times...but you know what? She had 18 mm the first time, and the second time she had 18mm (and like a 15 mm immature one) a day or two before ovulation, which is more like she had 20 or 22 mm mature follicle, so that's totally good! So on the higher dose, it should be better. The scary thing I guess is that if this cycle doesn't work out, she'll take clomid for a longer time, and that will be our last Clomid try. Then it's injectables. A lot to think about. So overall, I'm feeling good about this try. That's all we can do, right? Look forward with optimism and never, never look back.
In other news, I got an 87 on my test :) I'm very, very pleased :) Really really :) And I signed up for my 3rd year rotations. I'll post my schedule when I get it!
So here's what we're doing differently this time, our luckiest fantastic 8th time:
New donor from Xytex, who should have fantastic motility!
Higher dose of Clomid (150 mg), so Megan will have better ovulation!
IUI, to put those swimmers riiiight where they ought to be!
So, like I said, twins for us at Christmas ;) Noel and Jesus. Mary and Joseph? Mary and...Mary?
Anyway, I'm looking forward to this try. When I talked to the nurse, she mentioned that Megan's follicles weren't that great the last couple times...but you know what? She had 18 mm the first time, and the second time she had 18mm (and like a 15 mm immature one) a day or two before ovulation, which is more like she had 20 or 22 mm mature follicle, so that's totally good! So on the higher dose, it should be better. The scary thing I guess is that if this cycle doesn't work out, she'll take clomid for a longer time, and that will be our last Clomid try. Then it's injectables. A lot to think about. So overall, I'm feeling good about this try. That's all we can do, right? Look forward with optimism and never, never look back.
In other news, I got an 87 on my test :) I'm very, very pleased :) Really really :) And I signed up for my 3rd year rotations. I'll post my schedule when I get it!
Monday, March 05, 2007
It's been a while...
So here's a recap of the last few months:
After miscarriage #2, we tried three more times with all the natural fertility booster stuff. None of those cycles worked out...we weren't even completely sure Megan ovulated. We started seeing the RE somewhere in there, and tried to monitor a couple of cycles (1 trying, 1 breaking) but Megan needed provera both times to bring on a period. Regardless, she got a diagnosis out of it: Habitual Aborter. Isn't that lovely? They really don't like mincing words do they?
On the breaking month, we were having a VERY hard time. Megan and I were heavily, heavily taxed by the miscarriages and our relationship started to fall apart...so we took some time, went to WA for Thanksgiving to see friends and family, then after a whirlwind December of a friend visiting, two new clinically-oriented blocks at school, a pre-Christmas trip to Disney World with Megan's mother, and Christmas at home with Megan's mother, we were pretty ready to start again.
We got ourselves a new donor, as our old one ran out and we decided our old bank were a buch of Schmucks (I picked from a Megan-approved list). The RE to prescribed Clomid 50 mg and progesterone suppositories, and in February, we tried again to no avail. It maybe, maybe was a chemical but we didn't test. We just COULD NOT handle another chemical pregnancy, so we waited for a Beta on 15 DPO and it was negative :( Though, it was nice because on the 50 mg Clomid Megan's cycle was pretty close to 30 days and she had one follicle. So for this cycle, the Clomid is upped to 100 mg and she had one (better) follicle and an excellent LH surge which we detected at home easily! Things are much, much easier this way. But more expensive. I think each cycle is costing us about $1,500 now with all the monitoring.
So now that we have a better, stronger relationship, a better outlook, and some fertility meds, we're back in business. We just started the two-week wait for try #7, this time on 100 mg Clomid, so wish us luck! May this be the LAST TWW we have to do while trying to conceive our first child.
I do have to say, that since last August we have amassed enough clothing for an army of children, thanks to Megan's mother, and have started a cloth diaper stash. My mother loves making the diapers and even bought an embroidery machine to make them extra pretty. So cool! And we might be moving...more on that later...
After miscarriage #2, we tried three more times with all the natural fertility booster stuff. None of those cycles worked out...we weren't even completely sure Megan ovulated. We started seeing the RE somewhere in there, and tried to monitor a couple of cycles (1 trying, 1 breaking) but Megan needed provera both times to bring on a period. Regardless, she got a diagnosis out of it: Habitual Aborter. Isn't that lovely? They really don't like mincing words do they?
On the breaking month, we were having a VERY hard time. Megan and I were heavily, heavily taxed by the miscarriages and our relationship started to fall apart...so we took some time, went to WA for Thanksgiving to see friends and family, then after a whirlwind December of a friend visiting, two new clinically-oriented blocks at school, a pre-Christmas trip to Disney World with Megan's mother, and Christmas at home with Megan's mother, we were pretty ready to start again.
We got ourselves a new donor, as our old one ran out and we decided our old bank were a buch of Schmucks (I picked from a Megan-approved list). The RE to prescribed Clomid 50 mg and progesterone suppositories, and in February, we tried again to no avail. It maybe, maybe was a chemical but we didn't test. We just COULD NOT handle another chemical pregnancy, so we waited for a Beta on 15 DPO and it was negative :( Though, it was nice because on the 50 mg Clomid Megan's cycle was pretty close to 30 days and she had one follicle. So for this cycle, the Clomid is upped to 100 mg and she had one (better) follicle and an excellent LH surge which we detected at home easily! Things are much, much easier this way. But more expensive. I think each cycle is costing us about $1,500 now with all the monitoring.
So now that we have a better, stronger relationship, a better outlook, and some fertility meds, we're back in business. We just started the two-week wait for try #7, this time on 100 mg Clomid, so wish us luck! May this be the LAST TWW we have to do while trying to conceive our first child.
I do have to say, that since last August we have amassed enough clothing for an army of children, thanks to Megan's mother, and have started a cloth diaper stash. My mother loves making the diapers and even bought an embroidery machine to make them extra pretty. So cool! And we might be moving...more on that later...
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