Yesterday Megan was feeling even more pregnant than ever before, so we got all geared up and tested this morning, which we think was 11 DPO. And got a very negative test :( So, even though it's really early, I'm feeling deflated. It's so hard that it feels like, for our age, we've been at this thing way too long and nothing seems to be working out the way it should. I mean, we changed donors, got the fertility meds, and still nothing. I don't know, I wouldn't call this a pessimistic feeling, just a reality check that this is a long, long road for some people.
On the message board I post on there have been about 5 or 6 new pregnancies this month. Some of them are people on their first try, all the way up through an "Old Codger" who has been trying (medicated) for ages and just got pregnant on a natural cycle. I don't know, I'm happy for them, especially those who this has been such a long road for, but I'm a little disappointed. I mean, at 24, Megan should have top-notch fertility. She should have been one of those who made it on the first try. And, well, we sort of did, but...::sigh:: I don't know.
I'm still hopeful that we'll get a different answer when she goes in for a Beta, but at least now I'm very in touch with the reality of this situation.
Back to studies. Serious exam tomorrow that's going to kick my lousy distracted ass. Ophthalmology, Psychiatry, Neurology, and a little Anesthesia to boot. *I* need anesthesia!!! But I'm doing this for Fudge...Right...here he is again for your enjoyment ;) How could you not try hard for him?
My God, I'm going nuts.
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I know how fustrating it can be. I thought my DP would be really easy to knock up. Ha - turns out she's quite the infertile. She did over a year of IUI's (unmedicated, clomid and injectables) and now 2 IVF's and no baby. It's so not fair! But hang in there - the definition of IF is no pg after 1 year of trying, so at 8 tries you're still within the normal for straight couples trying with fresh sperm (that lives way longer than the frozen stuff that we use).
BTW - good luck with med school. Those were the best 4 years of my life - I lOOOOVED my med school (even though I worked really hard)and I loved my classmates (we were a very tight knit group). I've only been out of residency for 2 years now (1 chief year and this is my first year in practice), so it wasn't that long ago.
I keep trying to tell myself that (that 8 tries isn't abnormal), and we were just talking about that today. Thanks for the reminder :) It's so hard to keep things in perspective sometimes.
Congrats on finally making it to practice :) That must feel really good. I really love med school and my friends there as well, I hope that we'll be able to stay close after we graduate too. And thanks for the good luck wishes, I definitely need them :-D
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