Curse of threes, and "LFP"

Bad things come in threes, right? I don't think I could take more than three.

#1: Megan's sister, the one she's closest too who is a mother of two lovely teenage children, was diagnosed with rapidly-progressive MS. She already is in a wheelchair and has periods in which she can't speak.

#2: One of the children Megan and I mentored in the 4-H program was just diagnosed with ovarian cancer, stage three, at the age of 16. She's already had surgery and several complications, and she starts chemo soon. It was just this past winter that her mother sent me photos of her first formal dance, and I was so amazed that she was growing up so fast! And now she has metastatic cancer and might die. WTF?????????

#3: Megan has been working very hard at her job, and striving to please a passive-aggressive boss who could do nothing but find fault (despite everyone else LOVING her). She came home early today. She was fired. They didn't need a reason, PA is an at-will employment state.

So, let's add to this that there was a (very) faint positive on the HPT this week...what we like to call a LFP instead of BFP. We're not testing again until she misses AF (damn chemicals have scarred us, and we don't want to watch the line disappear...) So NOW she might be pregnant, and has no job, and can't take advantage of FMLA..... WTF again?????????????????? WHY on EARTH is this happening to us?

This is the worst day I've had in a long time.

Not much to say

We're 9 DPO today (or 10? not sure...) and have not tested. We don't plan to until Thursday at the earliest, and even then we might not. It's Megan's 25th birthday and we want to enjoy it, and what would make it better than a BFP? Sadly, a BFN would definitely make it worse, so what can you do? Anyway, she's not saying much about how she's feeling and isn't really obsessing, which is healthy, so we'll just have to see what happens.

As for me, I'm post-call after my first Trauma call and I must say it was just as exciting as my LAST call. Yep, no calls. We had one trauma during regular hours (elderly woman fell), but that was it, so really, I just got a good night's sleep (well, until 4:30 am when I had to get up anyway). So yeah, nothing too cool to talk about. Having call on Monday sure does make the week fly by though! One week from tomorrow, I move back home NEVER to come to York again! I'm going to push to switch my family medicine to someplace more local if at all possible b/c I can't exactly take the care with me here...Megan needs it for work!

So I'm off to throw down some lunch, then practice sewing together dead stuff so I can get better at suturing lacerations. Woot!

Surgeon on call

I had my first call night on surgery last night and I must say that I'm exhausted. I mean, all the sitting around in bed studying, followed by sleeping soundly all night was really more than I could bear. Lol. Actually, we never got any calls, so I had a pretty normal night. I didn't even have to go to procedures today, I just get to stay in my room because I'm "post call" and the rule is I can't stay past noon on a post-call day. So I went to the clinic this morning and saw patients there, had some yummy Olive Garden lunch for free, and then came home and have been dinking about on the computer since then. I think I'll have to study soon, lest I get too horribly lazy.

My fainting issues appear to be a thing of the past, thank goodness! I'm so glad that it was only the one day I was having so much trouble. AF has calmed down as well.

Nothing to report in terms of TTC other than I haven't been this obsessive about this in MONTHS. It's weird. Megan needs to smack some sense back into me.

Naptime for me now :D

I suuuuck

It's the first day of my period today, I'm practically hemorrhaging, and I can't stay scrubbed into a surgery. I nearly passed out in both procedures and had to scrub out and sit down. So yeah, I totally, completely suck.

And I'm on call tomorrow...which means I get no sleep (overnight call on surgery). Fantastic.

And it's only 2 dpo, so I can't bug Megan about symptoms...

Okay, really this time

We actually got a positive OPK!!! We're insemming!!! Yay!

I feel really good about this try. Will report back when appropriate....here's to a +HPT on Megan's birthday!!

City moment

I had a very city day today... I grabbed lunch from the local sandwich and pizza shop and ate it sitting on the stairs at the train station then hopped a train to center city. I had to hurry thru the rain with a newspaper over my head to school. Then on the way home, the train station was filled with music from this performer who was doing a "one man band" sort if thing and he was fantastic...he played a great version of the chrorale and shaker dance and there was a little boy from the audience with him who was rattling away this tambourine, and the people gathered around them were clapping around. The rest of us, who were pretending not to be watching, were all listening and smiling from the benches... it was just so cool. I really love being in a big city sometimes :)

In other news, it looks like Megan did NOT ovulate before because it appears that she is now, so we're going to do another insem this weekend. OPK is much darker :)

That's all for now. Tomorrow we're going to meet online friends at the outlets in NJ. Yay for online friends!

Round and round we go

Our return to the world of reproductive endocrinology is scheduled for Tuesday, November 13 at 3:30 p.m. Slight chance we could be preggo by then, if the timing was right or Megan ovulates soon....ha, yeah, right.

Back to work. News for me today...all this being on my feet all day is causing my legs to swell and my veins to dilate and look all gros...looks like it's time for compression stockings. Whoopee. What are the damn things going to look like when I'm 60???

Shameless plug and TTC frustration

This past Saturday we went to a performance by Jana Losey, a singer songwriter who happens to be the cousin of one of my very close friends. We went more to see our friends than anything, but WOW this girl is good!! She's just getting started, but her voice is beautiful and her songs are clever and fun to listen to, so I want to very enthusiastically plug her here! Check out her myspace at http://www.myspace.com/janalosey and catch a show if she does one near you! There are samples of her music on myspace and her first album is on iTunes...

So that's enough chipperness. We don't think Megan ovulated, so we're back to her POAS and we did an insem likely for nothing....sad. But this is pretty par for the course for us, so we're just going to hang tight, make an appointment for the RE next month, and keep on with the natural cycles for now. Hey, maybe we'll break our long cycle record. GAGS.

I'm back in York for the week and I'm seeing a CABG today (bypass, open heart surgery...should be SO cool), so I need to go take a little nap and read up before the case. I'm really excited! I miss my girl though. This living away from home thing sucks like no other.

Time to go! Ish...

So, Megan feels like she's going to ovulate, she has EWCM, but the OPK isn't totally cooperating and is lighter today than yesterday. Huh. Oh well, we're going with the whole CM/CP readings as being more accurate than the 50 cent OPK and are going with it. Plan is to insem tonight and tomorrow, and then we'll see where we're at after that!

Weekends off rock my socks off

I know, a totally dumb expression, but I sooooo mean it! This weekend off was amazing. I got to sleep in three times, got to see my girl AND my friends, including a rousing game of Munchkin (I'll trade you my cute shoulder dragon for your chain mail bikini!) and some fun outlet shopping. Not to mention there was a donut in there as well, AND ice cream (though not on the same day). I'm ready to tackle my first full week of surgery with bells on.

Megan's still not surging yet, so I hope it holds off a couple of days so I can be at home for the insems, so hope for us! Perfect insem day would be Thursday, so let's hope that the OPK stays negative until Wednesday at least :D

Off to study...topic of the evening: fluids, electrolytes, and nutrition.

Day off?

What on earth am I supposed to do with a day off? I've already cleaned the kitchen and worked on the (stupid fucking) cat piss stain in the carpet for the 47th time...and watched TV...and it's only 10:30. What do I doooo?

So, plan. I leave Tuesday for York and come back every Thursday evening (late). Megan is slated to ovulate midweek, so we're hoping her cycle skews a couple days later than normal so we can do the inseminations while I'm at home. Hope it works out :)

After this, we're going to do another natural cycle in November, maybe one in December depending on the timing, then possibly shoot for injectables in January. So I suppose that would mean a November-December get together with the RE and re-scheduling of the HSG that got unceremoniously canceled this past spring. Hopefully things will work out before then, but we're not really counting on it.

Time to go find something to do. The vacuum may be calling my name ;)